Mr. Get-A-Round

Well, Mr. Scott is crawling and pulling himself up on EVERYTHING and it's so cute!  When he first started crawling he was so slow going and so careful.  Now he is just so brave and there is no obstacle he won't take on.....especially Braylon!

The kid is fearless.  He just goes!  It's so funny when he sees something he really wants he does the crawling equivalent of running!  He is so happy that he can crawl to the dogs now, and he greets them with an open mouth.  Yuck!  No kisses in the mouth, Braylon and Jake!

The Biggest Loser?

So, Nick and I got a XBOX 360 Kinect and the technology is pretty cool.  I really wanted to get the Biggest Loser game because I thought "Nothing will kick my butt like Jillian Anderson" or whatever her name is.  So, I did the initial test and measurements and that, and waited to start because I was heading out of town for a few days the day after we bought it.

Well, tonight was the magic night.  I did a 20 minute workout and all I have to say is that *THIS* girl is so out of shape it's not even funny.  I was so tempted to pull the blinds for fear that my neighbors might see me and laugh and my chubby butt bouncing around!!!  Haha!  BUT, I patted myself on the back because I battled through and didn't give up and tailored my own workout plan and eating/calorie intake (yes, just in time for Christmas, none-the-less).

I have to admit that I have a very narcissistic view of myself.  The woman I see in the mirror doesn't in any way reflect the woman I see in pictures.  I don't hate myself, not by any means.  I love myself, actually.  I think I am a great and loving person, a good wife, a good mother and a good friend.  However, I would like to lose some weight and be a little more fit.  We would like to have another child, and I think it would be better for me to be in better shape.

I don't really like new year's resolutions because for some reason I always seem to fail.  Actually, I did make good on my last new year's resolution so that is a plus!  So, consider this my goal in order to have another baby!  Get fit!

Living for God!

Well, I have finally found a church to attend regularly (when I am not back in my hometown visiting my parents) and I really enjoy it.  I am so proud of myself for the changes I have made!

1) I have cut back a lot on my cursing.  I know that sounds silly, but I used to swear a lot, and now I notice how much those around me swear and their choice of words.
2) I have STOPPED using the Lord's name in vain.  YES, while it is very embarrassing to say that I even did that to begin with, it was like the swearing.  It just came so easily to me.
3) I have truly opened my heart to Jesus and live for him, burn for him, and try to be the person he wants me to be.  I am cutting myself off from any kind of family drama/gossip.  For those of you who know my family or ARE my family, please do not jump to any conclusions here.  I have three different sides of family now.  Every family has their drama, whether it's big or small.  I just really wish to remove myself from all of that.  From feeling angry or hurt when people say something without thinking, or favor one more than the other, or talk about another member of the family.  I just want to get away from it and LOVE everyone.  You can't pick your family, so you might as well just decide to get over your negative feelings and just accept your family and just love them unconditionally.  God loves YOU and ME that way.  He gave His son to die for YOU and ME.  Now that's love.
4) I am trying to be the person that God wants me to be.  I want to give more.  While we aren't rich with lots of money to hand out, we are rich in love.  You can give your time, you can give homemade soup or hot chocolate.  You can give your prayers.

I like to think that I am a good person, and no good person, even a good Christian, goes without their "weak" moments, or their moments where they didn't act or say or do what God would have wanted them to do.  I'm not perfect, nor do I claim to be, but I believe that by trying my best every day to be the woman, wife, mother, sister, cousin, friend that GOD wants me to be, then I am doing something right.

How time flies

Has it really been six months since my last post?  Wow.  Well, my last post was July and Scott would have been 4 months...

He is 10 months old TODAY!  He started crawling last weekend, and about a month/month and a half before that he got his two bottom front teeth.  I can't believe how fast he is growing up and how fast time is flying!

I am still at home with him, something that I hope can continue, but there hasn't been any recent extensions in unemployment so I am thinking about getting a part time job at Barnes & Noble.  I think it would be nice to get out every now and then, and I can be around books!

Time will tell what God's plan for me is.  So until I get word from Him, I will just continue on having a blast with Scott!

Baby blues and baby tunes

In order to end on a happy note, I have to start out with the more serious part of this blog.  Most of you know that I was put on Zoloft for postpartum depression.  It wasn't too bad, so I was on a small dose.  Well, since I have been staying home with Scott it has gotten worse.  Don't get me wrong, I love Scott more than anything and feel so blessed to have such a sweet, precious little boy...but sometimes I feel so overwhelmed because I literally spend every second with him!  And while I enjoy spending all the time with him it can sometimes get to me.  So, I called the doctor (mama called the doctor and the doctor said.....) and the decided to double the dose I was taking.  I am writing about this because I want any new mom, or any mom with an infant to know that IT'S OK to feel that way.  It's ok to cry or to feel overwhelmed.  What isn't ok is to ignore it.  If you feel like you are going crazy or are at your wit's end, call your doctor.  There are so many moms out there who feel like that, too, and they called their doctor and are getting help.  There is nothing wrong with getting help - especially when it comes to baby.

Now, on to the fun stuff!  Those of you who know me know that I love to sing.  And those of you who know me well know I LOVE love love to make up songs.  Well, to take existing songs and change the words around.  Here are some examples:

-A bay bay - "Hey Bray Bray" (one of my dogs' name is Braylon)
-Whatta man - "Whatta baby whatta baby whatta baby what a mighty cute baby" and "you so crazy, I'm pretty sure that you're my baby"
-Power of Love - "Cause you're my baby, and I am your mom"
And my favorite - Baby Got Back- "I like cute babies and I cannot lie, you other mamma's can't deny...." and "So your baby rolls a Graco..."

Mostly, I just love singing to Scott.  Me being laid off really was a huge blessing in disguise.  I have been to blessed to be able to stay home with Scott and spend all this time with him.  Every day is a new thing, and it never gets boring, that's for sure!

Solid food = solid poop!

Really?  I am excited over solid poop?  What is wrong with me?  When did I take this turn from hip, cool young woman to excited over poop mom?  I'll tell you when...February 4th, 2010.  And I have to admit...I like it!

Scott turned 4 months on June 4th, and we started in with the rice cereal, oatmeal and solid/jar food.  We started with veggies, because fruits are sweeter and we wanted to make sure he would like the veggies.  Peas was our breakthrough veggie.  At first he sort of moved it around in his mouth, unsure of what this foreign matter in his mouth was.  He didn't get a lot down that sitting, but once we tried later that night he gobbled them down!

Now we are eating a fruit and oatmeal in the morning, cereal and a fruit/veggie in the afternoon, cereal and a veggie in the evening and a bottle of cereal at night-night time.  Misc bottles are fed here and there throughout the day.

So, two days ago he made a poop and I took him back and when I pulled his diaper back he wasn't done.  I know, you are thinking gross - TMI - but it was SOLID and it was so exciting!  My little man's insides are working the way they are supposed to and he is making solid poop!

No teeth yet, but they will be here soon I think.  He is constantly chewing on his fingers and he drools CONSTANTLY.  I am really looking forward to being done with work and staying home full time.

Also, I now am the proud driver of a beautiful gold Chrysler Town & Country.  Oh yeah, it's minivan time.

It's ok to be away

I think this entry is going to be one of my most important ones, because it took me a while to know that what I was feeling was ok.  It was normal, actually.

It's ok to be away.  It means exactly what you think it does.  It's ok to be away from baby, to want to be away from baby.  It doesn't make you a bad mother, it just makes you human.  One thing we have to remember is that even though we decide to have a child and grow our family, we are still individuals and need our "me" time.  We also need "daddy and mommy" together time.  Just because we are parents and have a beautiful little boy to take care of doesn't mean that we have to sacrifice our time together to do that.

Scott just spent a couple days with his grandma and grandpa and I can't tell you how nice it was to just be us again for a couple days.  It was nice to be able to go out and drink with friends and stay out late.  It was nice to just hang out with Nick and do nothing but relax.

But Saturday, when grandma and grandpa brought Scott home, my life was complete again.  Even though it was nice to be without him for a day or two, it was even better to have him home!  So, new mom's especially, have grandma and grandpa take him/her for a day or two and have time with your man.  Or, have daddy hang out with him so you can go do something for yourself.  We can't take care of a baby if we don't first take care of ourselves.

So, it's ok to be away.